Emily F. lesson 2/5

Emily F. lesson 2/5: Well, I had warmed up some, but I was an emotional wreck when I got to my lesson. Between stresses at school and home, and my body not feeling good for the last couple weeks, I was kind of a disaster. The lesson ended up being more of a therapy session than a voice lesson, but that's what was needed. We discussed family issues, school stress, and then ended up talking about self-esteem and spirituality. Laurie said that she noticed me in masterclass looking like I was holding onto something/holding back, which I was. I've just been feeling so bad about my body that I feel embarrassed and apologetic for being seen and singing in front of everyone. So, yeah, that's something I really need to work on, because I can't effectively communicate or share my feelings if I feel like I don't belong or deserve the opportunity to share. So these things took up most of the lesson. In the last little bit, I did just a couple vocalizes, then we looked at a song I'm less familiar with--"Voici que les printemps" by Debussy. Laurie had me sing it on [a], keeping my larynx the same on every note. The melody jumps and has several leaps, so I tend to grab with my voice on the leaps. We talked about how the song is light and free and fun, so I need to be the "effervescent queen of fairy dust" (Laurie's words!) and enjoy the high notes. My goals for this week are to challenge my thoughts of inadequacy and speak kindly to myself, and work on my NATS pieces.